As far as short stories go this might be one of the shortest.
I know it’s been a long time since I wrote anything but there were reasons and they needed time.
So once again life finds you in a situation where you maybe compromised on your dignity and more importantly on your integrity. You compromise now for the same reasons as you did before. You have taken huge steps but they haven’t been enough. You end up at the same place and realize that the steps you took merely led you to the start. But that’s not a trip wasted because you can keep the experiences which teach you to be someone better than you are right now. It’ll take more time to become a man. But at least you’ve started on the journey and the realization is there, that yes, it’s time to grow up.
So maybe I lied. Maybe this won’t be the shortest story ever told. The last few weeks have been a tumultuous journey through hidden emotions, cracked memories, absolute ecstasy and disillusioning sadness. From looking down from the greatest of heights to trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel, I’ve ended up with quite a few memories not all of which are welcome or wanted. There were people I met who’ll be hard to forget. There were first meetings with unseen joy and second meetings with heartbreaking surprises. There was a merry go round of three people’s emotions where none of them ended up getting what they wanted but were too blind to look the other way, to just turn around and there was what they needed. It was hard to take a back seat and let everything sink in. I’ll take quite sometime to get over these few weeks, to fully appreciate the experiences, to feel some stored joy, learn lessons from the agonies and think about the effect on my life it will have.
One very basic thing we have to realize is that there is a way to treat another human being. There’s a way to treat another person. I know there are a lot of things I did which weren’t right and I have to live with those as the other people who made the same mistakes have to live with theirs but always, in life, what goes around, comes around. There’s no escaping from that, so think about the consequences of your actions and of the things you do. The fact is if we treat someone badly or wrong someone, we can’t be happy and I don’t mean single day happy or I bought a t-shirt happy. I mean happiness which last’s longer, which stays. It’s not possible. Every action has a reaction and it’s ultimately those reactions which add up to someone else’s action for which you would have the reaction. You know when you think why does this keep happening to me? There’s always a reason, you just haven’t figured it out yet but the answers always lies in your actions. When we’re young it’s easy to ignore these things but we won’t be young forever and eventually we won’t be able to get away with it.
On the other hand we also have to realize that people will always treat you like YOU let them treat you and actions will always speak louder than words and at the end if something bad happens, you have to be more mad at yourself than at the other person because you put yourself in that position in the first place. Loving another human being will always bring more sorrow than joy. Anyway if you can think, no, this person is not worth my feeling like shit, then you won’t. The easiest way to get over someone is to meet someone else, but each to his own, a lot of people believe in grieving. But we also have to realize that in life something’s are just meant to happen for a number of different and equally important reasons. Things we might not have any control over. Enjoy while times are good and fight on when it gets a bit harder. In the end everything is measured in moments and their time will pass.
The most important things in a relationship after love is respect and appreciation not to mention honesty and consideration. Without these five ingredients there can never be a happy fulfilling relationship. It took me a long time to realize this. Now I know what to look for but I also know that knowing is not always enough but it’s nearly enough and all that’s left, is to do. There are a few things in life which we shouldn’t compromise on and ultimately knowing what they are might go a long way in helping me complete this journey.
