Disenchantment? The next question would be with what? Life? No, probably not...there's too much happening at the moment to leave room for disenchantment. Then? With my professional life? What exactly is my professional life? University and studies probably...monday to friday...nine to five...couple of days six, no time to even consider a job, not that it is easy to find. But my professional life should be an aspect of my life anyway...
Everything is so routined these days, from getting up at a specific time to finishing class at a specific time, then gym, dinner, study and sleep. Everyday passes like this, bloody routine. I am not one for routine but there seems to be very little room to manouver so the feeling is one of being trapped in my own life, but how's that different from any other person? Even so that shouldn't make one feel better...
Is this disenchantment solely a result of tiredness or hatred of routine? Or is it "a symptom of a more fundamental malaise", a more understandable disease? That maybe being reaching that latitude in life of uncertain winds when one realizes that hopes deferred are maybe no longer realizable, some place's not visited might never be seen and that most importantly this journey, started with such bliss and a feeling of euphoria, might have afterall been a mistake...
